Monday, December 2, 2013

'Tis the Season

Here I am sitting rocking my baby girl as words come tumbling through my mind. I snatch up my iphone and begin to clumsily type. There are thoughts of the holiday season, friends and family, gifts and giving, coming into view. As I sit here and think of the joy of this, my favorite time of year, I'm taken aback with how blessed my family is. It's as if it's happened all of a sudden, like a huge surprise, when in reality I find that I've taken so much for granted, and so often forget to be thankful for all that we have been given. While sitting in the quiet of this moment I feel this beckoning, a Call from the Father... The call of the Gospel.

This beckoning and call, is a call to love and give unceasingly, as a spring that gushes forth from the earth without end...without hesitation. For me, at this time of year it would be so easy to hedge myself in to my little world of lights, trees, glitter and more and choose not to see what lies just beyond my borders. A choice not to see a dry and desolate place, to see the longing of the lonely, to see those in need, and those who have deep heartaches and are wounded, at this time of year.

You see just beyond our borders are those who are longing for more, for something, for ANYTHING. They try and fill this longing ache with a myriad of things from gadgets and trinkets to much more destructive things like alcohol and pills, but you and I have the more, the SOMETHING that they need. We have the GOSPEL. We have salvation. We have the JOY that is so prolifically touted at this time of year.

I know many of us broaden and enhance our benevolent and charitable giving at this time of year, but for me, I've all to often used that as an easy out. I give my donation(s), pat myself on the back for my good deed, and continue on with little or no further thought to the real need, the deep-heart need that resides at the very depth of us all. The need for the Savior, His Love, His Grace, His Redemption, and Restoration. So, what if in addition to the benevolent and charitable giving that we do this year, that meets the physical needs of so many, we also unashamedly shared our most vulnerable selves? What if we Loved with His Love, Showered others with His Grace, and led them to the Father..the place where they could be Redeemed and Restored.

Now, this may seem a difficult or daunting task to add to our already hefty holiday schedule and list of things that need to be done, but be encouraged. You have to do nothing other than be an empty vessel, available to the Call...to the Father. All of the heavy lifting is His job. You see HE IS THE SAVIOR, HE IS LOVE, HE IS GRACE, HE IS REDEMPTION, and HE IS RESTORATION. There is no reason we have to even try to be any of those things, just be, and allow Him to be those things through you. How much richer would this Christmas season be if we just stopped trying so hard to do it all and allowed Him to come in and abide in us and spring forth out of us?

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Do It Scared

How often in your life do you look back and regret having not done something or you feel like you've missed out because of Fear? How often have been challenged to do something and didn't because you were scared?

2 Timothy 1:7 "for God gave us a Spirit not of fear but of power and love and self control"

There are so many times in my life that I feel like I missed out and that I regret. There are lots of fun experiences with friends and lots of opportunities to minister that are lost due to fear. Fear of failure, fear of looking like an idiot, fear of looking like a "know it all", fear of truth, fear of being hurt, lots and lots of fear. I have so often allowed feelings to rule my heart and life. I have allowed my feeling to dictate my level of obedience.

Well, this weekend the Lord decided to rip that part out of me and pretty much shove it in my face and say "See this...THIS right HERE, I am taking this. We are done with this Cherish MICHELLE. No More of this. You will walk in FREEDOM and you will be OBEDIENT. GOT IT!!! Just TRUST ME...I've got YOU!!!"
I was so taken aback by how bound I am in fear and how it has bled into every aspect of my life, from my marriage, to my children, friendships, ministry, and of course my relationship with GOD. I've played it cool and done just enough to get by, but that is so trivial in comparison to living Under the FULL Authority of God in my life. Well, that certainly was not the end of it.

Later, that day during free time, I was put face to face with two of my external fears, heights and murky water. I HATE BOTH with a passion. I don't know about you, but heights freak me out, as it does alot of people, and murky water...well for crying out loud you can't see what is swimming around you or what might be about to eat you. Yes, I went there...I don't want to be eaten and that speaks to my fear of drowning but I kind of faced that and now I love to scuba...ONLY IN CLEAR WATER. Anyway, during free time there was the opportunity to do a zipline (heights) over and into a lake (murky water). Several of my friends were so pumped to do this and reverting to my junior high days of not wanting to be a scaredy cat I totally succumbed  to peer pressure. I was still scared to death but I was determined to be done with FEAR and really wanted to face this. Well, I climbed the ladder to the top of the zipline platform very confident that I could do this while also reciting to myself "God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of love, power,and a sound mind" over and over. I reached the top and of course looked out and down and panic consumed my soul. If my dear friend, Jaime, had not been up there I probably would have turned right back around and climbed down. However, my sweet friend began to speak over me. She spoke into my heart of courage and faith, strength and power. She embodied I John 4:18 in that moment.

I John 4:18 "There is no fear in love, but perfect love cast out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love."

She showed such love and I cannot begin to express how in that moment her being there, speaking over me, ministered to me. It so deeply and profoundly affected me. So I did it and to be honest I DID IT SCARED. I stepped off that platform, with help from Jaime's count down, and I flew. It was so liberating and freeing. The fear was gone and surprisingly, I did not flip out when I landed in the murky water.

To face those fears and to overcome, was so liberating. However, I soon realized after swimming to shore that I had hurt my hand. Apparently, when I let go of the zipline handle, the rope that wrapped it, had frayed and caused a blister type of cut/sore just below my ring finger on my left hand. It was minor and small but it began to bother me more and more. I washed it and it stung, I held stuff and it would be rubbed and sting, I couldn't even hold my husband's hand, wash my face, or change a diaper without it hurting.

God used this little cut on my hand to show me that there may be times in my life when I step out in faith that I may get hurt and in all likelihood pain will come, but it didn't kill me, and I'd certainly not change a thing. So what did I do... I did it again. I went down that zipline again, hurt hand and all,and LOVED IT just as much as the first time.

Y'all, to often we allow our fear and trepidation to dictate our level of obedience. We miss the freedom and joy that obedience can bring. We need to stop trying to to control the situation and just obey and Do It Scared. We need to step off the platform that we may be clinging to and dive into the unknown. We need to believe that Christ will cast out our fear when we step out in Faith and Believe.

God has so much He desires to show us, and such depths that He desires to take us to, if we will only believe that He is who He says He is. Y'all He is GOOD. HE is FAITHFUL. Most of ALL...HE IS SOVEREIGN.

Will you allow Him to Reign Sovereign in your life? Will you believe that He will give you eyes to see much more than you ever imagine conceivable?

Let us step off and believe and trust that He is and Always WILL BE.

Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen."

DO IT SCARED but JUST DO IT!!!

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Being Made Whole to Be Made Holy

Wounds...we all bear them from all stages of our lives. It could have been a criticism from a friend, a betrayal by a family member, a knife in the back by a loved one, or something unbearable and unthinkable that may have happened to us, but we bear them. Our wounds have the ability to paralyze us at any moment in time. It could be caused by just simply being close to the person that wounded you, it could be by a smell, a song, or a specific place. Wounds can weigh us down and hinder us from pursuing the call that God has upon our lives.

Hebrews 12:1-2 " Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God."

We must fix our eyes on Jesus the author and perfecter of our faith, not checking our wounds every chance we get. We often bear our wounds proudly "Look, see, what was done to me" or "Look how wonderfully and graciously I have dealt with it" or "Poor me, I deserve...". The only thing we deserve is death, not poor pity me or adulation for how well we did, but DEATH.

Christ bore THE WOUNDS. He bore them so that we wouldn't have to bear any wounds. Sure people hurt us often, deeply, and far more painfully than we may care to admit. Now, sure it would be easy for me as a writer to just say "get over it", "lay it at the foot of the Cross", "Live in light of the Great Hope", "Choose to forgive" or "Let go and let God"...but I know. I know what it is like to be wounded, betrayed, and scarred.
I know what it is like to wonder if I'll ever get over said hurt or betrayal. Let me tell you it is often a daily and moment by moment process of laying aside those hinderances, fears, hurts, betrayals, and choosing to forgive, choosing to love, choosing to give grace. Making the RIGHT choice where you may feel it is so undeserved and even sometimes unwanted. However, Christ bore the ONLY Wounds that matter in the grand scope of it all.

Now do your wounds matter? Is the hurt or betrayal you've experienced all for nothing? NO, not at all...they teach us something, draw us closer to our heavenly Father hopefully, and they make us stronger and wiser. However, we must not allow our wounds to go unhealed or to become our indentity (is it what consumes your thoughts, is it the lens to which you view yourselves or that others view you through). We MUST allow the healing hands of God's mercy to move into our lives and make new those areas of our hearts that are marred and broken, pierced and scarred. We can no longer seek our identity in our brokenness but in the Great Hope of Salvation in Jesus Christ. Are we so desperate that we hang on to our wounds or will Jesus be all that we need?

As my pastor said a few weeks ago "We must put off brokenness and put on Holiness".
Does this take work? YES
Does it hurt? YES
Will it be an agonizing battle? Maybe
Will it be worth it? ABSOLUTELY

The God of all Creation is calling us, beckoning us to wholeness...to holiness. He bore the wounds, paying the price, redeeming us. Will we allow Him to RESTORE us?
His desire for us is to be made new continually, to lay aside every hindrance, every fear, every bit of past baggage. He so wants for us to RUN free, unencumbered, saved by GRACE, REDEEMED through HIS wounds, and delighting in the Great Hope of our Salvation.

Will you be made Whole to be MADE HOLY???

Romans 12:1-2
"I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect."

Lamentations 3 ( I know this is a long chapter but READ it.  IT IS GOOD STUFF)

I am the man who has seen affliction under the rod of his wrath;
he has driven and brought me into darkness without any light;
surely against me he turns his hand again and again the whole day long.
He has made my flesh and my skin waste away; he has broken my bones;
he has besieged and enveloped me with bitterness and tribulation;
he has made me dwell in darkness like the dead of long ago.
He has walled me about so that I cannot escape; he has made my chains heavy;
though I call and cry for help, he shuts out my prayer;
he has blocked my ways with blocks of stones; he has made my paths crooked.
10 He is a bear lying in wait for me, a lion in hiding;
11 he turned aside my steps and tore me to pieces; he has made me desolate;
12 he bent his bow and set me as a target for his arrow.
13 He drove into my kidneys the arrows of his quiver;
14 I have become the laughingstock of all peoples, the object of their taunts all day long.
15 He has filled me with bitterness; he has sated me with wormwood.
16 He has made my teeth grind on gravel, and made me cower in ashes;
17 my soul is bereft of peace; I have forgotten what happiness is;
18 so I say, "My endurance has perished; so has my hope from the Lord."
19 Remember my affliction and my wanderings, the wormwood and the gall!
20 My soul continually remembers it and is bowed down within me.
21 But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope:
22 The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; 
23 they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
24 "The Lord is my portion," says my soul, "therefore I will hope in him."
25 The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him.
26 It is good that one should wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.
27 It is good for a man that he bear the yoke in his youth.
28 Let him sit alone in silence when it is laid on him;
29 let him put his mouth in the dust— there may yet be hope;
30 let him give his cheek to the one who strikes, and let him be filled with insults.
31 For the Lord will not cast off forever,
32 but, though he cause grief, he will have compassion according to the abundance of his steadfast love;
33 for he does not willingly afflict or grieve the children of men.
34 To crush underfoot all the prisoners of the earth,
35 to deny a man justice in the presence of the Most High,
36 to subvert a man in his lawsuit, the Lord does not approve.
37 Who has spoken and it came to pass, unless the Lord has commanded it?
38 Is it not from the mouth of the Most High that good and bad come?
39 Why should a living man complain, a man, about the punishment of his sins?
40 Let us test and examine our ways, and return to the Lord!
41 Let us lift up our hearts and hands to God in heaven:
42 "We have transgressed and rebelled, and you have not forgiven.
43 "You have wrapped yourself with anger and pursued us, killing without pity;
44 you have wrapped yourself with a cloud so that no prayer can pass through.
45 You have made us scum and garbage among the peoples.
46 "All our enemies open their mouths against us;
47 panic and pitfall have come upon us, devastation and destruction;
48 my eyes flow with rivers of tears because of the destruction of the daughter of my people.
49 "My eyes will flow without ceasing, without respite,
50 until the Lord from heaven looks down and sees;
51 my eyes cause me grief at the fate of all the daughters of my city.
52 "I have been hunted like a bird by those who were my enemies without cause;
53 they flung me alive into the pit and cast stones on me;
54 water closed over my head; I said, "I am lost."
55 "I called on your name, O Lordfrom the depths of the pit;
56 you heard my plea, "Do not close your ear to my cry for help!"
57 You came near when I called on you; you said, "Do not fear!"
58 "You have taken up my cause, O Lord; you have redeemed my life.
59 You have seen the wrong done to me, Lordjudge my cause.
60 You have seen all their vengeance, all their plots against me.
61 "You have heard their taunts, O Lordall their plots against me.
62 The lips and thoughts of my assailants are against me all the day long.
63 Behold their sitting and their rising; I am the object of their taunts.
64 "You will repay them, O Lordaccording to the work of their hands.
65 You will give them dullness of heart; your curse will be on them.
66 You will pursue them in anger and destroy them from under your heavens, Lord."