Tuesday, June 26, 2012

A Veiled Life

Today I found myself with an unusual amount of energy. 4.5 months pregnant + an unusual cup of coffee makes for a motivated pregnant mommy. I've been wanting to write for some time, but honestly have been sick, tired, and well...just lazy. Well, today with my bit of extra energy I was foraging my library for a new Devotion book. I knew I had a few that I hadn't touched yet (thank you thrift store), and I needed to get back into a regular time in the Word and hearing from God.

Since getting pregnant in March I've really struggle with consistency in the Word. Actually it's been pretty non-existent. Like I said before I've been sick, tired, and just plain lazy. I hate admitting that, but I'm not going to be some fake Christian girl/woman acting like I have it all together. I DON'T!!!

I've found myself overcome with all these new hormones and crazy pregnantness (that is my new word) that I've allowed myself this tidy little space in time to hide. Hide from what you might ask??? Well...everything. I do only what is required for basic living and of course "being churchy". Alot of my free time is spent hiding in sleeping or watching tv. I really hate owning up to that. UGH!!! No I don't neglect my responsibilities as a wife and mother, but I certainly do as a daughter of the KING. (Now I'm depressing myself...pregnant emotions...FUN). What I mean is that I have given myself excuse on top of excuse as to why I don't have time for a devotion or prayer life. I can't get up early because I need sleep or during Bree's nap time because I'm exhausted and need to lay down. I've not believed Matthew 11:28 "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." God plainly states that He will give me rest if I just COME TO HIM. That is plain and simple enough. I also allow myself to get swept up in television. I hide behind the excuse, that it helps me to unwind and decompress. Well, yes, having a 4yr old can be stressful, exhausting, exhilarating, and fun all at the same time, and yes I think time to unwind in fine, but I've gone a bit overboard I think in my pursuit of the next decent thing to watch. 

Anyway, the reason I'm writing this is to talk about living a veiled life, hiding behind excuse, circumstances, or habits; vs living an unveiled life, free from the excuses, past our circumstances, and liberated from our binding habits. I don't want to live hiding, veiled from what could be. I want the curtain to be torn from top to bottom, to see the endless possibilities before me, without the lies of danger or the fear of the unknown. I want to boldly step out into what God has already laid at my feet. I want to live with Unveiled Hope, Unveiled Love, Unveiled Passion, and with Unveiled Faith; ready to wage war for my heart and the heart of those around me. 

Let the Veil be torn and Unveiled Living Begin.

2 Corinthians 3:18

The Message (MSG)
 16-18Whenever, though, they turn to face God as Moses did, God removes the veil and there they are—face-to-face! They suddenly recognize that God is a living, personal presence, not a piece of chiseled stone. And when God is personally present, a living Spirit, that old, constricting legislation is recognized as obsolete. We're free of it! All of us! Nothing between us and God, our faces shining with the brightness of his face. And so we are transfigured much like the Messiah, our lives gradually becoming brighter and more beautiful as God enters our lives and we become like him.